How to find meaning? Naturally a good job, a partner, a trusting family, that can help.
But that is outside of ourselves, and once we are ready for it (or we have to) we should face ourselves, get a sheet, a paper and one hour, and nothing to do but write whatever.
Else the short term self will win.
So worry more about the long term, but not by overthinking, by finding your direction, once, one afternoon, in the right circumstances for it.
Yes, it’ll take more than just one but everything worthwhile takes effort
You will be ready soon, in the meantime, just observe