It’s been a year now.
It was no boring year, full of ups and downs.
I’ll do an art piece later, but this may be the last post here if I find a better platform for it.
Oh and in case any of these posts hardly make sense, feel free to use AI.
Last year was the year of the dragon, of change, of chaos. The thunder hit, and then the rain came down for the first time. The hole it left was hard to collapse, it was easier to try and replace it. I loved her fully, as I did again. Is that why it’s so hard to move on fully? Or was it because of things not completely understood yet?
Now the once burned land flowers again.
This year is of the snake, of introspection. I learned from all mistakes and went to the bottom of my soul, but it wasn’t easy. And there’s probably more to come.
I succeeded in my challenge, went from antisocial to social and learned all about others, became who I wanted to be, I got into reading, stopped playing video games, all in the name of love.
I look back upon my full life with kindness, and I learned to present myself after realizing I could not. I am with my inner child. Yet I was also never this wise.
I also learned how to slow down.
I can hardly imagine what one more year, a month, a day could bring.
I will write books, work, do art, studies are no issue, I may learn a language. Of course I will always help others but I learned that “As good as it feels filling everyone’s drink, it’s good to fill your own cup every now and then.”
So I did, and life accorded me this time.
I’m no longer scared of myself, playing with a hand behind my back.
I remember bullies stood no chance before control came. But even in my mind, I had shackles, to ensure I would not wrongly use my intelligence.
(Read with rock music background in your head, slow phrase then fast phrase with more tonality)
(Slow, picking up the pace with each phrase)
Don’t compare me
I am a mystery,
Many parts of me
(Important)
Living in harmony,
In the heart of me
Such a fantasy,
The names for me,
AuDHD, dyslexy,
Have no hold on meeee
My complexity
Is my enemy,
(Sad)
No one sees me
No one knows me,
(Strong)
I see them,
I feel them!
The world in vibrant cooolors
Held me down, held me down,
Now I am free…
(Proud)
A vibrant mind
In a powerful body,
I am a mystery!
I think it’d be only right to feel proud. Ah! Feeling is not that easy.
But the journey is far from over. I will try to break more limits today.
I think… I think that my dad finally sees me
time to mediate again, so that souls do not split over unspokens
I love this quote, “Don’t be so humble, you’re not that great”