First time I really felt… overwhelmed.
Not by the crazy attraction park for a whole day - my heart has no issue after all - or my feelings anymore, or even the mountain of things to do I put on my shoulders. No, by people.
As the day progresses, more and more have come to this biggest party I could ever have imagined. It’s simply too big to imagine, like a thousand parties in the same city…
So many bodies. Everywhere, making it hard to move. Maybe it’s because I’m exhausted, and danced most of the day, but I felt I had to retreat.
Now I feel this happened before… Yes… One more shard of my being to collect. https://cyber-spaghetti-eea.notion.site/The-Knight-without-an-armor-1d548ab2679a80649d93dd300e8cd850?pvs=4
So there is a downside to opening the senses. Worth it.
Time to get back into it, meditatively.
After all, I asked for this. Nirvana won’t be reached by sitting on my arse. It requires that the unconscious merges with the conscious.